All These Things Shall Give Thee Experience.....

The past couple of weeks have been very difficult for me.  We have been trying to finish up on our mortgage refinance.  Hopefully that's almost ready for us to close on today or tomorrow.  Drama with my daycare.  Hopefully that is over as well.  Problems with the kids, especially Anita. It's really hard to see your kids struggle and not be able to make it better for them.  And health problems with me.

First I hurt my back lifting one of the daycare kids.  That had me in pain for almost a week.  Then that got better and my shoulder started hurting.  My shoulder, back, and right arm were hurting so bad.  It got progressively worse until finally I went to the dr last week Monday.  I have a rib out of place that is pinching a nerve.  I have not been in so much pain since I had my kids.  Seriously, the pain was as bad as labor pains.  It had me in tears.  Finally got some stronger pain medication that made the pain bearable.  Lincoln keeps warning me not to get addicted to pain medication.  I don't think there is any danger of that because I hate how they make me feel.  Anyway, now I'm seeing a chiropractor and he thinks it will take about a month of visits three times a week and it should be better. 

Before I went to the dr, we tried everything we could think of to ease the pain.  I put some rub on medication that is for muscle aches on it.  Apparently I'm allergic to it because I now have a ichy rash with hives and welts everywhere I rubbed that medicine on.  It's just lovely.  Then yesterday I started throwing up.  I feel like my whole body is falling apart.  I'm in a pain medication induced haze that I HATE.  I just want to feel good and be able to do my daily responsibilities and feel like I'm here, not like I'm in a dream.

I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to learn from this experience.  Maybe to be more patient with people who are sick.  I hope I hurry up and learn what I need to so I can get back to feeling good and be able to take care of my family, the daycare kids, and the house.